Saturday, 29 December 2012

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas!!

It's that time of year that everyone eats too much, drinks too much, parties too much, and complains too much about how much they ate and what they should do about it. They continue to follow the same pattern as it is the holidays and say that *tomorrow* they'll cut back or January 1st they will start their new fitness regime or diet.  Why wait?  Start now!!

Christmas was spent with my family and friends and was a blast as it is every year - as long as I have these important people around me at Christmas I am happy.  Of course this also includes much food, tempting treats, and spirits flowing; I've either made or served most of them.  The dishes and treats that I served I did try to be conscious of the ingredients and tried to make them as healthy as possible.

This Christmas was no different, with exception I had to heed too temptation.  Shortbread cookies are the vice that seems to try to break my will.  But I am happy to say that I refrained from them....with exception of sneaking one little taste tester.  I tried and did send home much of the homemade baking and leftovers with guests to *get it out of the house*.  My treats which were one my diet sheet were a piece of dark chocolate - but again within limits.

My training came to a grinding halt on the 23 of December with strict instructions from my trainer - ABSOLUTELY NO TRAINING until January 1st.  You would think this would be a welcome relief as not realizing it, with exception of the weekends, I was training morning and night, twice a day, almost since September.  I have been given a mandatory 9 day break.  First few days were chaotic because of Christmas and all the festivities but I still seemed to have an anxious feeling about me.  The first day I came back to work after Boxing Day shopping was extremely hard.  My body seemed to be *looking for something*.  It is missing the training.

Today I finally booked my massage for tomorrow ~ which will hopefully help with this anxiousness. I have been told the measurements, weight and photos will be done before training on Wednesday January 2nd.  I have also signed up for the 120 day challenge which should take me close the May show.  This is a challenge to lose the most body fat between everyone who has signed up.  It will keep me on a strict regime as I am now, but there is a huge reward at the end.  Regardless of the outcome, I know that I will be in shape, healthy and at the end I expect to look and feel my best.  In the end, its the goal and challenge of it all.

I did have the odd comments over Christmas from customers and family that had not seen me in a while - that I was too skinny.  Really?  Was I that FAT before??  But - at this time I take it as a compliment, as change scares people.  I am the same person, just at least 27 pounds lighter at the moment.  Boxing Day I was able to shop for a few clothes, but unfortunately no pants.  I am also trying to refrain from buying too many new things as I don't know where my size will finish at.  The new underwear was most exciting tho.  :)

The New Year always brings fresh and new, new challenges, new beginnings....here's to 2013....CHEERS!


Monday, 17 December 2012

The Season is definitely upon us...a little bit of snow, cooler temperatures and everyone running around to find that last minute, *Something special* item.

I am the list maker, yet I found myself this year, shopping via *on-line* - less crowds, and because I had *less time*, it made for *less stress*.  Other than the last few minute stocking stuffers, I think I can declare that I am finished my shopping.  Now to get my turkey!!

I did however find that this past week was a little stressful in other ways.  I am not someone that likes their routine compromised or switched up without warning.  My partner in crime, whom we are *dieting* and *work* together, left for Brasil on Wednesday.. This I knew she was doing, months ago - I was alright with this.  My husband so graciously said that he would cover her shifts, but would NOT be able to cover me when I need to go do my cardio.  He doesn't feel comfortable being left in the store by himself in case it gets super busy.  For the record - as the economy unfortunately has brought sales and business down to a slower level it has not been busy enough not to be manageable by one person.

Because of my husbands criteria, I found myself having to get up at 4:45am to go and do my cardio in a cold garage.  For some reason having this ruin the pattern of my routine - has thrown me off.  My body is used to running at a certain time - funny how that is.  I don't know if it is just because I have it planned how *I* like to do things, or it is my husband *telling* me what I can do to accommodate him.  I am usually a person that has the ability to see both sides, but for some reason - I am only seeing *my side* with this predicament and I am not enjoying it!

My trainer was kind enough to lend me his stairmaster; which again was going to have to go in the *mancave - garage*, until Ron figured he could take it apart and get it downstairs.  I think Ron's idea behind this is that I wouldn't have to go to my friends and use her treadmill.....I will still need to do that too.

I have to make a point, it was nice on Sunday morning to get up and go downstairs and do my hour of cardio - in a fairly warm basement.  Now the challenge will be - to be disciplined enough to go and do the cardio when needed and not get distracted by housework, or other chores that need to be done or if I have to get up early - actually get out of bed at that God forsaken hour.

I had a *small* challenge over this weekend - it is the holiday time where everyone is having drinks, eating goodies they don't normally eat.  We were out for dinner with friends on Friday - well everyone had sauces or items that just were not applicable to me - I found it easy to order and be satisfied with my eating criteria however.  One small exception, I did have a glass of wine.  I figured I could enjoy it this evening as I have had no alcohol since September.  This weekend I also hosted our staff party at our house.  With exception of eating two fattening chicken wings (protein) I had made a point of eating before everyone started arriving - I was able to refrain from any goodies that may not have been good for me.  I will point out the veggies and hummus were satisfying for me.  I did look forward to my yogurt and berries when everyone left.  :)

This next week will be the last of my training until my forced 9 day break....since September.  I will be counting down the days until I am able to train the beginning of January.  I am sure that I will have lots to write about in between....



Monday, 10 December 2012

Tis the Season

The *Season* has sneaked up on a few people ~ my previous post I *stole* from a friend who had posted eating tips throughout the holidays.

The holidays are meant for getting together with friends and family, reminiscing about the year that has passed and setting goals for the New Year to come.  These gatherings always seem to be around food and drink.  Being disciplined sometimes just isn't enough, when tempted with such goodies and treats.  What about those people for them it does means *life or death* - not just a few extra pounds?  The *life or death* I mention is, heart disease, or diabetic, or allergies to certain ingredients that may be hidden (not intentionally) in a recipe. So they HAVE TO be disciplined.  For the person who may be training or on a weight loss mission, *just one* treat, may turn into 3 or 4.    What do you do if this happens to you??  Completely fall off the wagon, and give up?  No way!!!  Jump back on that wagon, you just went over a bump that's all.  It's over and done with, you can't change it now, but you can change what is up ahead.  Which fork in the road do you decide to take from this point forward?  It's only up to the individual.  Stop beating yourself up and move forward, not to worry tomorrow is another day!

This week for me was my weigh-in complete with measurements, body fat composition and bikini shots.  Wow!  Not liking the bikini shot so much as of yet.  Surprising tho for me was the fact that we have *found* my diet.  I didn't know what this meant until it was explained to me.  When burning calories, you want your body to take from the fat stores and not the muscle.  The calculations of the *numbers* showed that my body fat had gone down but my body mass (muscle) had fluctuated by only 1/2 % which is good.  As of last week - I was down many inches over all, plus 26 pounds in total since my first weigh-in. (I lost 5 lbs since last month - I had actually hoped for 10) When I look at the photo shots - all I see is what needs to be done still - I know there is progress, and I know that my arms are more defined (which I like), but it is still hard for me to see what others do.  I won't lie it is a compliment when people in class comment on my arms and back, but it still is hard to take the compliment.  I want to be gracious, but I am *learning* how to just say *thankyou*.

I did have an *ah ha* moment yesterday.  We were having dinner and my sons told me to lift my shirt so they could see my *abs*.  This came from earlier in the day when they asked if I HAD abs?   The compliment came in the form of an odd remark - *My mum has abs*, my son said to his girlfriend.  Then my son told me he thought it was just wrong for his mum to have a stomach like that - that he liked me when I was *chunky*.  I didn't know what to say - he thought I was *chunky* before??  This goes back to one of my other posts in how we perceive ourselves to what others perceive us - and how happy we are within ourselves.  At the same time they also gave my husband a bad time and asked, *How he felt that his wife had a 6 pack and he didn't*?  Funny thing again, I am not seeing the *six-pack* that they mentioned - but I will take the compliment, even tho they used the word, *chunky*!!  This will lead into another post in regards to change and how some people don't like change.

As for this month ~ it will be a short month in regards to weigh-in and measurements.  January will be the start of more weight training and possibly less cardio for a while - depending how my body reacts over Christmas and how much temptation I can ward off.

                                                       September 2012
                                                       December 2012

Saturday, 8 December 2012

Tips for avoiding Holiday Weight Gain

Tips to help you avoid holiday weight gain:

With the holiday season upon us, many of us find ourselves surrounded by festive food and the subsequent concern of weight gain. Studies have shown that the typical person may gain two to seven pounds over the holiday season! We may also find it harder to maintain our exercise program with all the holiday parties, shopping and travel. In addition, many
 people have much more stress during the holiday period, which can result in overeating as a "feel good" response. The best way to avoid gaining weight over the holidays is to eat in moderation and keep a consistent exercise program. Here are some other tips that may help:

1. Try to stick to a regular routine with sleep and exercise. Many times feeling tired or stressed is mistaken for hunger.

2. Watch your alcohol intake. Alcoholic beverages contain "empty calories," offering little to no nutritional value and contributing to excess weight gain. Try having a glass of water between alcoholic drinks to help cut calories and remain well hydrated.

3. Eat a small, healthy meal before party time. It's a common misconception that you will lose weight by skipping meals. The truth is your metabolism slows down causing you to store body fat if calories are too limited for too long. Another negative result is that you are more likely to binge later at night resulting in greater weight gains.

4. Don't stand by the food at the party. You will be less likely to partake in unconscious snacking all night if you instead move, mingle and socialize with friends.

5. If you're hungry at the party, reach for the vegetables (without the dip), fruit or rye crackers. If you do host a party have plenty of water and low-calorie snacks available.

6. Eat slowly. It takes about 20 minutes for the stomach to register a full sensation and signal the brain that it's had enough. Slow down and listen to your body.

7. Set goals and keep a food diary. Plan your weekly food intake and calorie count to include those treats or Christmas cookies in your diet -- in moderation, of course. Don't totally avoid sweets and holiday food; just plan for it and eat more fruit and vegetables during the week to allow for this. With this plan you can also avoid the guilty feeling afterward that can add to your stress level.

8. Eat protein. Quality protein includes lean meats, seafood, chicken, turkey, eggs, yogurt and low-fat cheeses. Protein will help you feel full and control your appetite.

9. Try to stay consistent with your workout routine. Don't fall prey to the excuse that you'll get back on track after New Years Day or when the weather warms up again. You may need to modify your program for the busy holidays. Do what you can, but keep it up, trying new fitness activities to keep things fresh and fun. Seek out a professional to help you with your program if you need motivation.

10. Always remain positive. If you do have a "bad" day, don't worry or stress about it. Just get back on track the next day.

Monday, 3 December 2012

Inspiration comes in many Forms

I missed my last weeks update, so you have two weeks rolled into one.  The days just seem to blend into the next at this time of year, and my life seems to revolve around eating and training.  I actually don't mind it at all as I can be a creature of habit, when I have a goal/focus in mind.  I had another epiphany at the end of this past week however ~

Inspiration comes in many packages, many forms -

It can be a person, a place, an inanimate object ~ inspiration can be different than motivation and yet the same.  I had a visit this week from a customer who has become a friend over the years she has been coming into our store.  I hadn't seen her in a while so I sent her a message telling her I had missed her smile, and wondered what she was up to.  She had crossed my mind and I was curious on where her life had taken her lately.  Funny thing, two days later she sent me a message telling me she was coming to see me for a visit!

I'm sure this has happened to many people - but I think we forget about how a kind word, or genuine encouragement can inspire people.  We talked about life in general, family, and what she had been up to.  We got into why she actually wasn't training at the moment and how she missed it.  She missed the *sweaty feeling*, the *strong feeling* and how those *endorphins* made her feel.

At the beginning of my week I had received a note of thanks for the encouragement, help and motivation I had given our four young Shodans on their way to Black Belt.  I didn't think anything of it at the time of helping them.  I just wanted to give back what had once been given to me and I enjoy doing it.  I didn't even think how this would genuinely effect these young people on their quest for their Black Belt.

How does this make one feel?  I received a nice note from my friend who said that I had inspired her, and motivated her to embark on her return to her fitness regime and possibly do another show.  I suggested to her a New Year, New Beginnings!

I have realized inspiring and motivating others, motivates me.  I like to be able to see people succeed, push pass their comfort zone and challenge themselves. I gain inspiration from their successes.  Here unbeknown to me, I had inspired these people yet at the same time they were also giving back to me without knowing it and me realizing it at the time.

Small moments like this encourage me and motivate me to work harder towards my goal.  My cousin is a prime example.  He signed up for a full marathon, he had never run a marathon before, so instead of signing for a half marathon the crazy guy signs for a full marathon. That's just nuts!! That was one of the motivating factors when I signed up for a half marathon for February 2013, I might as well - what do I have to lose.  Not to mention, the pressure I had from my wonderful trainer who was *strongly* encouraging me as he may look at it.  Me?  I think he was just being a *bully*.  (In actual fact - I obviously needed the slight push)

On another note, this week is the *bikini shot* ~ Yikes!  I actually have had a slight issue.  Nothing fits - in a good way!  I have lost weight, but I do not weigh myself at home, so I do not know how much until Wednesday - I let Blake take care of that.  He has told me that we are doing measurements again too.  I will have one final weigh in at the end of the year.  I still have not bought any new clothes as I don't know how much more I will lose.  Pants are becoming a problem as well as clothing when I am not working.  Leggings are becoming the garment of choice - not my favorite - but they will have to do for the time being - no time to shop.

I have had a few days that I am super hungry over other days - but I still have been diligent in sticking to my diet.  This week I did actually have a dark chocolate piece as a treat - which is allowable on my diet sheet.  My body seems to know when it is eating time (I get a super hot flush), and I have still been religiously consistent in my cardio.  I have tried to up the length that I am running - some days I get bored faster than others.  My music helps - the gym still has not re-opened and seems it will probably not do so until the beginning of the year.  My body seems to be holding up well. Definitely tight in the calves and this week my mid back feels tighter.  But in relation to everything else, I think I am feeling pretty good so far.

The New Year will bring new beginnings and new challenges with my workout routine.  I don't find it hard knowing that there will be challenges, the hardest part is "not knowing" what those challenges will be, how much cardio I will have to do, etc..  It is not black or white - everything is a depending factor on how my body responds.  Total Body Development has a 120 Day Challenge starting in January ~ that will be another goal that I will work towards - anything to keep the mind and body active!  And why not, it will be a New Year, New Challenges, New Beginnings!!

Monday, 19 November 2012

...so many journey's....

This weekend I was part of a journey of 4 young people. They were all different ages in their teens, and they tested for their first level black belts in the Shotokan karate system that I myself train in.  This incredible two day journey of watching the tear down and the build up of an aspiring blackbelt can be scary and intimidating for the person who has never done something like this.  For the student that is motivated and working towards their blackbelt, it can conjure up the same feelings in addition being intimidating, motivational and inspirational all at the same time.   It is a very emotional time for not only the people that are grading for the coveted black belt but the spectators as well.  For the four that tested and anyone including myself who has tested for any degree of a blackbelt, it not only is a lesson in the karate skill, tradition and knowledge but what one might learn about themselves. This weekend brought me back as it does for anyone who has tested for their belt, to the moment in time that they went thru this same process and had that hard earned belt tied around their waist.

For me this weekend had a slight spin on it - as I was not the one testing but was one of the moderators that was on the floor, helping with these young peoples' journey, encouraging and motivating them, as well as watching history in making.  The torch has been passed - our beloved Sensei and friend who passed away 2 years ago this December had been the last one to run a grading at our dojo and tie on our black belts.  For our new Sensei these essentially are his first blackbelts that he has tied their belts on, and promoted them to blackbelt rank. It was a honor and privledge to be on the floor with him, not to mention he is like a son to me and I was so proud of how far he has come!

With all this excitement going on I was still able to get my own personal training in that I needed to do,  I just had to be creative and organized when it came to my cardio.  Planning ahead is the key!  My eating was slightly off in timing - BUT - I did not waver in what I needed to eat.  I had packed my food, preparing for the day/s, what I would need to eat and when.  Preparation is another key!  The same I must say for Sunday - my one day off from work.  I had many errands, it is the planning and preparation that is needed to stay on task and regimented.  Eating out can be tricky - so you must be diligent in either asking for something that is on your own diet plan, and being creative or bringing your own food.  Yes, this can be time consuming - but planning ahead, saves straying to something that you should not be having, or trying to guess what you are going to eat and when.  Stay away from sauces.  I noticed almost everything that can be ordered comes with a sauce - and how easy it is to *dip just a little*; dipping just a little can add up!

On the training level this week - my energy level seems to be good.  In my body I am finding some tightness in my calves and legs towards the end of the week.  Unfortunately - due to other commitments on Fridays I have been unable to go to yoga class and I am noticing that my body misses this.  Yes - I could stretch at home - when I remember but going to an actual class makes me set aside the time and I make the time to do it.

I am now receiving comments that I am too skinny, or wasting away from customers and people that don't see me all the time. These same people do not know what I am working towards either.  My food intake and training is being monitored by my trainer.  Our communication is good and we are always talking about what and how I should be eating.  I, myself, believe I am eating what I am supposed to eat - of course we are still fine tuning.  I feel that I am eating almost all the time, and I am eating a lot more than I normally ate before.  Yes - I am noticing body changes - the goal again until the end of December was to reduce as much body fat as possible.  Then the heavy weight training will begin in January.  I have also been told that I have 9 days off between Christmas and New Years.  Absolutely no training.  I have some concerns about this.  How will my body react to this?  How much strength will I lose?  How bitchy will I be?  (Actually I know exactly how I will be - watch out!!)

Of course with my Type A personality my trainer knows exactly how to get to me!  He has now shamed me into committing to a 1/2 Marathon!!  ME??  Who does not enjoy running long distances?  What the hell??  And why can I not just say - NO I AM NOT DOING THAT!  Nope - not me - a challenge, something new to be able to say that I did it?  What was I thinking??  I gave him every excuse - he refused to accept it!  And me....I signed up and committed to it!!

Adding to the exceptionally busy weekend ~ my mother in law help me complete all my christmas baskets for my business which in turns allows me to concentrate in other areas.  This of course is one less stress or worry.

On to a new week, new challenges, new goals....

Did I mention - 16 more days till the dreaded bikini shot?!  Yikes!!






Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Update of the week ~

This past week was more of the same - double cardio during the week, and single cardio on the weekend.  The completion of the majority of my Christmas baskets has brought some relief.  Unless I look at the calender or back in the blog, I have lost track of the weeks.  One week blends into the next - but I know come January, I will know EXACTLY what week we are in until SHOW TIME!

Once again I have been reminded that I will be given one week off of training - period!  Nothing during the particular rest week - no cardio, no karate, no bootcamp, no spin class - which only means possible hell for the people around me or at least the two that still live in the house.  My trainer suggested maybe they start shopping around now for good hotel accommodations.  There will be no living with me - I even go to the gym on my vacations!

The exciting part of the week would be how you might look at it - photos!   What we see in the mirror is not necessarily what other people see or what the camera shows.  I still have a hard time seeing any progress that is/has been made.  We are our own worse critics! However - after dissecting the pictures with Blake I was able to see the difference in different parts of my body.  As he may see the progress that we have gained thus far, I only see the amount of work that needs to be done prior to May.  I was also forewarned that the next set of pictures will be done in a bikini.  My body does look totally different in a bikini now than it did a few months back.  Less boobs, flatter stomach,  that I notice.

Ron, my husband came to spin class with me at the beginning of the week and followed it up with boot camp.  I think it was a shock for his system.  He has taken up cycling but spin is a different kind of cycling.  He noticed his legs were getting fatigued and then he had a hard time catching his breathe for boot camp.  With that being said, he has full intentions of coming to spin and boot camp again this week.

I am not finding much difference in my meal plans.  I have been diligent in keeping with the alloted carbs - which is half of what the diet plan calls for at each meal.  What I have noticed recently is that just prior to *eating times* I get this huge *hot flash*.  It's almost like my body knows that it is going to get food.  My stomach growls at the exact time that I should be eating.  Once again, our bodies are incredible machines.

Below I have posted one of my first photos that we took in September and one of the most recent ones taken the beginning of November so that you can see the changes.

                                                       September 2012
                                                       November 2012

Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Another month has gone by - or rather how I count now is by weeks, the beginning to the end of the week.  I am always looking to see where I am in relation to the beginning of the week compared to the end of the week,  how my body feels, how much energy I have - and the exciting part... - what is the plan for the coming week?

This past week I had calliper measurements done, weight measured and an extra last minute spin class thrown in for good measure (pardon the pun).  I would consider it a productive week - not to mention I completed all but 3 Christmas gift baskets for my business, and all I have left to do is put bows on them.  Yeah me!!

The calliper measurements were a surprise as I thought we were going to do them this coming week.  After a short anxiety attack as I wasn't mentally prepared to have them done - the measurements showed I had lost overall another 10 ml body fat bringing the fat down to 64 ml in total, and another 5 pounds!!  Whoo Hoo!!  We are a long way off, but the goal was to be down at least to 60ml body fat by the end of December.  If I can get it lower before then, that's even better.  Blake has told me he doesn't like to give actual numbers as a gauge because everybody's body is different.  Monthly pictures will be taken this coming Wednesday.  I received an email this morning preparing me for the dreaded *bikini shot*.  Ugh!  One more month then photos will need to be done in the bikini.  Now if that isn't motivation to keep working hard, I don't know what is.

Blake has also had me change my eating regime slightly.  I am now allowed carbs everyday again, but what ever carb the meal plan calls for I am to do 1/2 the amount.  Putting carbs into my diet is actually the hard part, as it is easy just to have the vegetables and protein.  My most favorite meal at the moment is my morning protein pancake, and my evening snack of greek yogurt with 1/4 c. of berries, usually blueberries.

My eating times are a definite 3 hours - my stomach is growling and letting me know I need to eat.  My water intake has been good as well, I am almost drinking 3 large jugs of water, which is approximately 4.5 litres or a little more.  I am finding if I don't drink it I miss the water.  Funny thing what are bodies can do, and the amazing machines that they are.  Remember taking in that much water, you must get rid of the water too - which means more bathroom breaks.

Body changes are showing a little more for me. Today I noticed that my face seems to have slimmed down some.  My pants are definitely looser as my son pointed out to me on the weekend, and my shirts are slightly baggier.  A few people have commented about my arms looking smaller.  The one thing I wonder...were they *fat* before?  I've been told - *You're skinny*.  Hmm...compliment - Yes?  Or a derogatory comment - No?  At this time I have to take it as a compliment, which is the case - I just wonder - *How fat was I before*|?

My oldest son competed in a power lifting competition this weekend, and took gold.  This also qualified him for the Nationals in April 2013.  This was the first time that he has done something like this - a different experience for him.  This son will compete in May in the same competition that I am doing as well.

Off topic on a personal side - This past week my youngest son told his Grandma she was going to be a Great Grandma.  I think he was a little nervous and was concerned about her reaction.  Non the less, as grandma's are - she was thrilled that she is going to be a Great Grandma in 2013.  We still don't have an actual date yet - we will know more towards the end of the month.  More baby news, we were also told that there will be another baby in the family as my niece and her husband are expecting as well - babies, babies, babies - how exciting is that??  He will announce it to the rest of the family when he hears the expected date of arrival.

Until next week - or updated progress photos.

Sunday, 28 October 2012

*...that mind of yours is going to be the death of you*


This week was an interesting *reflection* week for me. Reflecting or analysing - which ever one sounds better or pertains to the situation on any given day.  I thought I would add into my post this week some excerpts from my email to my trainer the day after a session of my training, and some of his answers back to my questions.  Communication is the key - and this is a learning process, as well as those odd " A HA" moments that we may have in between the self-doubt spurts. These particular paragraphs show how I was feeling and his answers back to me.
(Me) Thanks for a good *beat-down* yesterday -Holy Smokes!!  lol... I thought you were trying to kill me! lol,...  I know - if you didn't push me, then I'd feel ripped off - right?  NOT!!  Frigg'n sprinting on the treadmill; maybe 30 seconds, but really 60 seconds?  But...damm, my mind as you know is such a huge antagonist against my body!  THAT's what pisses me off!  I have to analyse the workout, what I could have done better, how I could have done better, and what I need to do to improve.
(Trainer) That mind of yours is going to be the death of you.  My question to you is, if you are pissed about the DB weight on the squat presses, what weight do you want to do? Then, why is that relevant to your success?
(Me) Then of course there is the word - *hate*.  Example: *I HATE BURPEES*....I have decided, and acknowledge, HATE is a really strong word, and realistically I DO NOT hate the exercise...I know it is beneficial to me whatever exercise you give me, I just *dislike* certain ones more than others.  And...yes you are right its the ones that we like the least that we need to learn to love.  (hmmm....I say that to my students I teach, they need to learn to love what they don't enjoy - or work harder on the things that they are not as good at...)  ...so I think that statement has come full circle and bit me in the ass!!!  
(Trainer)  Acceptance is what we need to preach, you may not like it but you need to accept that you are doing it and move on emotionally. 
(Me) My frustration in having difficulty doing an exercise - annoys the crap out of me!   When we have to drop down the weights, that frustrates me even more.  I use the word frustration as I am not mad or angry, just frustrated with myself and want to be able to do it - knowing it will benefit the full outcome and aid in the goal that we are working towards.  
(Trainer) Doing the exercise period gets you to the goal, not how much weight you are doing while performing it. It will all get very mundane for you soon, just look at it from the point of view that you can be happy/sad/pissed off while your doing it, which do you want to be? Improving yourself shouldn't be as bad, love every minute of it so you can enjoy the body you will be left with. 

***THIS LAST SENTENCE WAS AN ACTUAL "A HA" MOMENT FOR ME!!***
(Me) I also know that you have reiterated to me this is a journey and a process - I am trying to understand that.  I have heard you when you said that we are experimenting to see how my body is going to react, in regards to food and energy -  analysing again, I guess that is why the communication has to be there.   I just usually can tell you what time it is by my stomach growling,..lol...and I am drinking a minimum of 3.2 litres of water or more a day.
(Trainer) Don't look at it as screwing up because that causes stress. It's a learning curve like you said so treat it like that. We are back on track now and we have still achieved great success so far so don't worry.

As you see communication is the key, whether it be discussing the training program, the training process, the eating process, and/or in general how the body is feeling after the fact.  This week in general was a pretty good training and eating week after we got the carb issue under control.  I just wasn't being consistent on eating the carbs with dinner on carb days.  I am however to keep doing what I am doing until the end of the month when we can analyse my numbers again and see where I should be and how far I need to go.  

I have noticed that my body must be shocked a little on the weekends when I only do one cardio session.  I feel that I am almost looking for the time that 'I should go and do my hour of cardio, almost as if my body is starting to crave it.  Remember this is still early, that can change.  


My powerful affirmation of the week I believe is,  *Love every minute of improving yourself, so you can enjoy the body that you are left with.*  Yes, I have the *Go Hard* mentality, but....I need to be happy doing it - try not to get pissed or sad about what and how I am doing.  


Hmmmm....that Blake....he's one wise trainer!!

Until next week...


Monday, 22 October 2012

Metabolism revving up!

...and here we go again...starting into my 8th week ~ I won't lie, I had to look at the calender to calculate how long it has been so far.  Having my own business, working 60+ hours a week (insert violin playing here), add in extra training, added Christmas preparation for my store - one day blends into the next - I welcome Monday because it is the start of a NEW week and a completion of the one past.  :)

You are never to old to learn something - and we really should be learning something new every day.  I learned this past week that my metabolism is revving up and that is what we have been waiting for - unbeknownst to me.  It actually start late last week, without me knowing this - and I will get to that explanation.  For whatever reason I was feeling ravenous - almost EVERY 3 hours on the dot.  No clock watching, my stomach was telling me I was hungry.  Not craving anything in particular, just hungry.  Get out of my way hungry - I NEED to eat!!

Discussing this with my trainer, he explained this is what we had been waiting for my body to do.  Really??  As he put it - your body knows it is going to get the food, so it is letting you know, it is not holding on to everything as it knows you are going to feed it in 3 hours.  This also means the metabolism is firing up.  This is a good thing to help burn the fat as well.  He doesn't like to tell people that they are looking for this from their bodies, as then you get anxious and wonder if that is the feeling that you are expecting or not.  This is why the communication between the client and the trainer is so important - you need to be able to discuss what your body is doing and why.

It turns out your body almost works the same with water.  I thought I drank a lot of water before...yep - DEFINITELY I am in the bathroom more....geez!!  You'd think the amount I sweat during a workout, especially twice a day I wouldn't need to be in there as often.  I have a water jog that is approx. 1.3 liters.- I have been using this to monitor my water intake.  I am drinking 2 - 3 jugs a day now. (room temperature or warm water is better for you)  So - at this time the same analogy applies - the reason I am in the bathroom lots, regardless of my bladder being the size of a pea, is because my body knows it doesn't need to hang on to the water that I am giving it, it is going to get more.  The body knows there is more where that came from, so it actually can release the water more often.

The body is really an incredible machine.  Something else that I have noticed - which I have neglected to tell Blake is that any time I drink a beverage or eat my meal, I feel myself heating up.  Just a guess - could this be my metabolism firing up?  This I will google too.

I have to admit - I cheated yesterday with my food - well I had a home made chocolate chip cookie (slightly healthy as I knew the ingredients that I put in it) .  My reasoning was - I am NOT on a strict diet - YET...and it was a carb day which had not consisted of many carbs.  That sufficed - did I feel guilty?  A little - but one was good enough.  I did refrain from having an enchilda for dinner that I had made by special request, even tho my enchildas are a healthy version too. I stuck with my salmon and bok choy.

As for training this week, I did go to the place that is going to open as the new gym (same people/new location).  Due to permit issues, etc. they still do not have a definite date of opening.  The owner has told me that I can come and use the eliptical when she is there.  I tried this on Tuesday, I found that it wasn't balanced and it did this annoying shake during the time I used it.  It is not convenient to use it until the gym opens as her schedule conflicts with my times - so I will use the treadmill for now.  I am lucky I have the use of Roberta's treadmill - but as I mentioned before it is not one of my favorite things to do - I get bored.  I have started doing intervels of abs in between minutes of the treadmill to make it go faster.  I can't wait till the gym re-opens.  Rumor has it that there may be another gym opening in our mall - if this is the case, I will join there.

So until then...I continue feeling like a hamster on a wheel....run, run, run...


Thursday, 18 October 2012

How much is your Health worth?

Have you ever thought about the *price* of your health?  I have always been of the mind set, *If you have your health, you have everything*.

Look around you, usually when you are having either a pity day or things aren't going the way you planned - there is ALWAYS someone worse off than you, and surprisingly, they probably have a smile on their face.

So, is there a price on our health, your health, my health?  We can pay thousands of dollars for cosmetic surgeries, or depending on our medical system and the coverage we have for the drugs we may need to battle an illness or a medical issue that needs attending to, this can amount to a few hundred dollars to thousands.

So, have you ever put it into perspective?  How much do we take our bodies and our health for granted?
Or do we live along the line that we are invincible or think that, *It will never happen to me*.  And...if it does...we are so willing to play russian roulette with our bodies?

We need to be proactive in our health and well-being.  Physical fitness is a lifeskill, it isn't an option. Everyone needs to be active, whether it means walking around the block, taking a flight of stairs instead of the elevator, walking the dog, swimming, cardio classes, or lifting heavy weights, the list goes on.  Physical manual labour also plays into this.  A physical job compared to a sedentary job (sitting at a desk for 8 hours) can be more beneficial to your long term health, coming back to your quality of life.

You can have all the money in the world, but if you don't have your health....hmmmm...what type of quality of life do you have?  I not saying everyone needs to be in tip top shape, what I am saying is, be proactive about your health.  Make smart choices, don't wait for tomorrow to start, as tomorrow NEVER comes.  Start today!!

I challenge you to make one small change for the better of your health.  It may be take an extra step. Choose a parking stall that is further from the entrance so you get in those extra steps.  Get a pedometer and clock your daily steps.  Challenge yourself - you will be better for it - and feel better for it.  Add more vegetables to your plate, instead of breads or those heavy carbs.  Drink water instead of pop or juice.  Watch your caffeine intake and be concious of the amount of sugar you may be adding to your food to sweeten it up or the salt you may add to your plate.

If you have your Health - You have EVERYTHING!!  The rest is just a bonus!!


Tuesday, 16 October 2012

Defining frustration....

Wow ~ What a busy week!!

First of all training was rough this week!  Not the fact that it was everyday but the fact that there was some frustration involved.  After analysing the way I was feeling I recognized it was frustration over being mad. I have felt like this during parts of my martial arts training as well, when I had to learn a form or sparring technique.  Once again, I am reminded that this is because of my Type A personality.  I was able to look at how I was feeling from *outside the box* and evaluate it...this still didn't make me feel less frustrated but allowed me to acknowledge the frustration over being mad.

Monday was considered a holiday, our dojo was closed, this allowed me the opportunity to take an additional spin class by Blake, and bootcamp by one of his other trainers at Total Body Development.  My training schedule was the same for the rest of the week as it has been lately - we have discussed it and it will stay this way until the end of the month when we do my measurements again.   

Wednesday personal training was more of a treat - I was given more weighted exercises with a little bit of cardio in between.  It was a nice change - but.....Hack Squats with a weighted squat hold for 15 seconds, were a killer!!!  I think these could become one of my favourite exercises, minus the hold.  lol....

Wednesday was also the day (see previous post) that we took more pictures.  I was a little excited and apprehensive about what changes, if any I would see.  My trainer has told me that there are significant changes.  I think we only see what we want to see, or what we envision in our minds or in the mirror, and this may not necessarily be what is the reality.  As I re-evaluated the pictures again, there are changes in my body; which also inspire me to work even harder and keep these images in my mind as I do so. 

Thursday was my frustrating training day.  The day itself was good, I didn't have anything that I can think of that was weighing on my mind.  I went to bootcamp, followed by Spin - all fired up, ready to train.  Bootcamp - was considered self-motivating, I think.  We were given a certain # of reps per exercise, but we all did the same exercise at the same time.  The first person to get to the number, called it out, then we would move on to the next exercise.  In other words, if you didn't get to the required reps by the *call-out* you missed out doing the full reps of the exercise.  In other words you were competing not only against yourself but everyone else in the class.  Nothing more frustrating than not getting all the reps in or getting called on your form in the *static squat*.  Spin class - was good, with exception of 1/2 way thru my stomach started to growl, which seems to be the pattern now.  Type A personality rears its' ugly head again !!  

This week was supposed to be the week the gym here in town reopens.  As they are waiting on permits, it looks like it will not open till the end of the month. This in turn means it is still treadmill work for me.  This week I also added in pushups and ab work alternating with the treadmill, which broke up the monotony.

Sunday - the weather was terrible fall weather.  I could have gone to my friends to use her treadmill but I honestly didn't want to wake her and her husband up first thing on a Sunday morning - I chose to run the stairs at home and do some alternate cardio; which wasn't as motivating.  I needed the accountability.

Reflecting back on the week -I did get some *extra* training in; towards the end of the week I was feeling hungrier than at the beginning.  My diet has been good - I think I am eating better now, as I am diligent in getting all my meals and snacks in and planning ahead for my protein and vegetables.

Sunday was a productive day for me!!  Roberta came over in the afternoon and we got a lot of *basket production* started for my store.  My goal is to have as much done prior to Hallowe'en.  I only put the pressure on myself, but it sure feels good once it is done.  With the help of extra hands, it makes the work go faster and isn't as tedious.  It was great to have her help!!

Onward & upward.....here we go....







Wednesday, 10 October 2012

6 Weeks In....Picture Day

Six weeks in to my personal challenge towards my May 2013 goal ~

Today I have my weekly personal training session after work as I do every Wednesday.  Last week we did the calliper test - today are more photos.  Blake has told me these early pictures will eventually end up being my favourite pictures.  As this past weekend was Thanksgiving, I was able to go to bootcamp and spin class on Monday evening (dojo was closed).  Yesterday was spin and bootcamp again, and another hour of karate.  I am drinking a minimum of 3 Litres of water, and I am sure I am leaving it all on the floor if not more in all of these classes.  This brings me to how I am feeling today ~ just a little tired.  Not drag my ass tired; but feeling like I could use some more sleep.  My legs (quads) are tight as well.  Note to self; need to remember to stretch.

I actually am curious to see the difference between last months photos and these ones that we will take today only because in the last couple days I have now had customers, different people who do not know the amount that I am training, comment on my weight.  This is a good thing - I think.  It is usually followed up by, *You weren't fat before...* or *You looked good before...*, I haven't taken offence to this but it does make one think, *What did people think before*.  As women, I truly wonder if we are ever happy with ourselves or happy with what we see in the mirror.  There is always something that we would like to change or want differently on our bodies.

The human body can be an amazing machine and it really is fascinating how it actually works.  We hear alot of times, your mind will give up long before your body will.  Interesting concept - brings a whole new meaning to positive thinking and focusing on what we want our bodies to look like and what we are willing to do to get to that point, minus any cosmetic surgery, just plain hard work.

I also have customers who are personal trainers and fitness competitors.  Everyone has advice and their opinion on how things should be done, from eating, to training, to what your mind set will be and what changes will happen, emotionally and physically.  I have a fairly open mind, so I am like a sponge - I can listen, hear what they have to say, and I value people's opinions' - and with hearing the advice that people like to share - I can digest it, share it with my trainer and come up with a plan that is unique to my situation.  I know its' still early in the process ~ I may feel differently as time goes on....

Until then ~ Onward & Upward....I may just post those pictures sooner than I thought I would....



Monday, 8 October 2012

Happy Thanksgiving! Gobble, Gobble....

What a productive week this has been ~ all round!

Many positives and a few negatives....but I wouldn't really call them HUGE negatives.

I continued this week very similar to last week ~ double cardio every day with exception of the weekends - with some interesting stats and a nice surprise on Wednesday.  The stats are still fairly new to me, as I don't understand the *extra* numbers in regards to the percentage of total body fat, etc.  But...since my last weigh in and measurements which was a few months or so back...I have lost 10 pounds, and my overall body fat was 77 ml(?) down from the last number (which again I cannot remember, in the 80's I think?)  I think this is right, not a hundred percent sure.  But, the exciting part was that I was down in calliper measurements and scale measurements.  We were going to do pictures, but that will be this week now as I neglected to bring the camera in to the gym (maybe on purpose?).  Blake http://www.totalbodydevelopment.ca/ has told me that this is great as the first month or so was more of an experimentation to see how my body would respond to the diet (which doesn't feel like a diet yet) and additional cardio.  I have had the odd comment in regards to working out and/or losing wieght - so there must be a change that others are seeing.  Me?  Somedays - Yes; other days - No.  What I have noticed is that my abs seem to be a little more defined, which in itself is exciting...as if they are starting to be noticable, just think where I could be in 7 months from now?  Being the goal person I am, my goal is to get my body fat down to 60 ml (??) by Christmas - so we are in good shape to *go hard* in January.

My training week felt good until I strained my back during my Wednesday personal training session.  This was to my own fatigue and poor form ~ note to self...Blake was more upset with himself for not stopping the exercise or taking weight off the barbell.  I don't hold him responsible in the least, but as our personalities are similar, I do see where he is coming from thinking this way.  He being the trainer should have recognized this and had me the client drop the weight.  Me, being the personality I am...would have been ticked if he had me do that.  A trip to the chiropractor told me almost EXACTLY what my trainer had told me...and ok'd me to continue to train.  Blake had told me to go easy, and no cardio, but the thought of not doing anything almost brought me to tears.  The frustration of it all.

I also added cycling in for a change up in cardio.  My husband has since been riding his bike to burn calories and work out an issue he has had with his hip.  Over the weekend I joined him 3 times, clocked in 75 km in total and got my cardio in for the 3 days I  needed.  The weather has been beautiful for this time of year, so it is hard not to take advantage of it.

Thanksgiving for us Canadian's isn't as big as it is in the States - or so it seems.  I tried to fly under the radar this year to get out of cooking - ONLY because everyone who usually comes to dinner, was mostly out of town.  I could use the excuse that it is I who can only eat certain things. However, turkey is a protein, we would have salad, and it was a carb day so I could actually have some yams.  Since I would cook I would know how everything was cooked, ie. not too much salt, preservatives, etc,  You can probably tell, I caved in, and cooked for a small group of 9 this year - not our usual large number but enjoyable just the same.  As my son said to me, *Mum, you've cooked for the last 24 years, why would it change now?  Besides, it's Thanksgiving*.  Well, I guess he is/was right as we had our dinner last night.

And since I haven't told my family and friends about this blog as of yet....my youngest *sprang* the news to us that we will be Grandparents next year.  Wow!!  A bit of a shock, and yet not.  It is still early - but I have told him I expect to be the *hottest Grandma on stage*.  lol.....

With that being said, this Thanksgiving reminds me how thankful I am for my family, the healthy kids I have, the food that is able to be put on the table, mine and my husbands' health, and the good friends I have in my life.  Life is good ~ we shouldn't just be reminded of this at Thanksgiving but all year thru.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Let's rock it going into Week #6

Sunday, 30 September 2012

The end of Week #4

Tonight brings either the end of Week #4 or the start of Week #5 - ever the optimist - I shall say it is the beginning of Week #5.

This week was an interesting week if you have read my previous post.  The gym that I do my extra training and cardio at - closed their doors.  A little stressful - but the good news we have been told is that they are opening up across the street hopefully by mid October ~ so creativity was the name of the game trying to figure out how I was going to get in the extra cardio as I am still on double cardio each day with exception of the weekend which consists of one cardio session.  The fact the gym was closing was a convenience issue more that anything.

Eating at the moment is still seeming easy - Too easy in fact. I am used to eating fairly clean as I mentioned before, so I am not finding it a huge challenge on what to eat.  I am still on every second day no carbs ~ which isn't usually a problem for me.  The last few days I have found that I am slightly hungrier - I don't know what the reason is.  I am eating in moderation but not weighing anything as of yet.  But I am also dreaming about how to make certain recipes or what I am going to make.  I think this is early to start actually dreaming about food??  How crazy is that?  My friend who is doing the training as well has suggested that we take pictures of our food to see who can make it look better.  Well ~ I think the challenge is on ~ I just have to figure out how to take the pictures with my iphone....remember I am technically challenged.

I was excited this week as I figured out that I could make my protein pancake at work on our panini grill ~ of course this also started because of the closure of the gym.  But....I'm saved as I can make it myself.  I also  figured out that I can make it with out the oats on the days that I cannot have carbs.  

I have also noticed this week that I am more aware of the no-carb day and the carb day as I make a point of getting my food together for the next day and calculating what I will eat.  I still have been very diligent in writing everything down.  I put back the coconut pieces at Costco yesterday as the package says it contains sugar.  What a shame!!  ;(

I felt strong during training this week and I really look forward to the days that I have bootcamp and spin together.  Yes - I feel that I worked hard, and yes I sweat bullets like there is no tomorrow ~ another Lake Willson; but training felt good - my stomach growls halfway thru spin class tho. Of course the only weight training I am getting is on bootcamp days so that may be another reason I am really excited about going,  My personal training session went by fast which consisted of cardio (what else) and ab work.  I think this was because we were talking the whole time about the closure of the gym.  I had to switch up some of my cardio at the end of the week because of the circumstances of the gym, but I still managed to get it all in.  I went to the track with my friend on Saturday and according to her - kicked her ass!  Really ~ what a compliment ~ but that wasn't the intention ~ I knew that I had an hour of cardio to do, and that was the goal.  Get 'er done!!  But secretly that made me feel pretty good.
My shoulders are slightly sore and not all the time.  I believe this is aggravation from my job not from training.

I've stepped on the scale a few times  this week as my clothes seem to fit a little different, my boobs seem to be getting smaller (yeah!), my abs seem to be a little more defined, but I can't tell if that is wishful thinking or I am just imagining that, but I still think my scale is broken.  This week is the week that we are to do more measurements and see what my body has done in the last month.  I am excited but at the same time a little nervous.  This is only the beginning, and am I going to be on the right track where I should be?  Only my friend and trainer can tell me that.  It will be interesting to hear if I have to stay on the double cardio or introduce the weights.  What ever he tells me to do ~ I'll follow.

I look at each week as an exciting challenge and am taking one week at a time.

Bring it on Week #5!!




What?? Gym closed??

We are such creatures of habit ~ whether we drive the same route to work every day, stop at the same coffee shop, religiously have the same drink order, or have the same routine for getting ready in the morning.  Of course every personality is different ~ but as I have described my Type A personality can you imagine my surprise, and STRESS when I found out my gym closed??

I was lucky ~ I had a few days to get my head wrapped around it before they closed the doors, but unfortunately they did not give their members much notice.  What I learnt from this was, I wasn't the only one that was stressed about the change that was going to happen to routine because of the gym closing.

*Gym rats*, athletes, elderly looking to just keep their bodies moving, or just *normal Joe* who has made the gym part of their every day routine or life style.  Exercise can be fun ~ but it has become a part of many peoples every day routines.  Add into those routines, their working hours, their travel time, their home time - there really isn't much room left in the day to allocate that hour one can make time for getting to the gym and working out, let alone spend the extra time driving to a gym that is out of the area where you live.  Some people are lucky enough to find a gym on their way to work; or have the time to drive to their gym of choice or even have a gym at their place of business. Other people have equipment in their homes (me) but do prefer the gym atmosphere or feel motivated going to a gym.  Other people have their day scheduled to the hour, to the minute. Convenience is such a factor.  Yes - there may be many gyms out there - but again, options, price, convenience, equipment play into every equation.

This week one of the gym's closed their doors as of Wednesday.  OMG!!  I have my routine, I have my goals, and I did not factor in the fact the gym was going to close.  Yes - I did have a few days notice as they are in the same complex as my business.  We have been assured that they are re-opening under a different name across the street - hopefully by the middle of the month.  This sequence of events has now left many people including myself, looking for alternatives with their training.

I am lucky as I also train in at my trainers' gym as I have mentioned in previous posts.  Whew!  But what was I going to do in between those times, especially when I am to be doing double cardio, and I don't have a lot of extra hours in my day.  Thankfully, my friend who is also training for the same show, suggested that she had a treadmill at home that I was more than welcome to use.  My trainer offered me an older stair climber that I am welcome to borrow in the interim.  The community centre we do have in our area has a treadmill and some other older cardio equipment - and of course the other alternative is the track.  It just means that you have to start being creative.  Yikes!!  A change in routine - this is always good, but when we are set in our ways....OMG!!!

In the time the gym has closed its doors - I have used my friend's treadmill.  I went to the track with my friend and ran stairs and laps (which is much better with a friend than alone), and since my husband has started bike riding, I have humoured him and joined him on his route twice.

I can say cardio has not been boring ~ it has been different changing it up, and of course the weather has been nice to be able to take advantage of being outside - which is an actual bonus.

The owner of the gym has invited me to train in the chaos as they are getting ready to open their new location. When they have their cardio equipment set up I will take her up on this as it is still in a convenient distance from my business.

But until then....I'm learning ~ variety is the spice of life.

Thursday, 27 September 2012

Isn't technology great?

Isn't Technology grand??

A well dressed customer in business attire comes into my store this morning and as per the usual question asks, *Do you have wifi*?  I proceed to take her order, give her and her associate their coffee, and the *secret* code to the internet.

As it turns out this customer is going to be giving a presentation to 100 people.  As she also needs to be in this area for another meeting she told me what better way to kill two birds with one stone.  Multi-tasking?  Time management?  Who would have thought?  Isn't it grand how far we have come in our technology?

We see people in our store, Face Timing.  This is where they can talk on their phone and see the person they are talking to, even in another country (ie. England) and its FREE.  But...if they were just to call them the *normal* way they would have to pay for the long distance.

Skype is another one.  This again can be done anywhere; we have customers doing this as well, whether it be for business interviews, meetings or just catching up with a friend across the world.  Again - I think this is FREE.   I have never skyped - but hear about people doing it all the time.

I find all this technology fascinating. How far we have come from the dial up phone, the huge wind up phone (way before my time) the can and string... Do I understand half of this new technology?  Absolutely not - do I have or have I had time to do Face Time or video chat?  Nope...lol...but...you never know what may lie in  the future.   

Enjoy your day everyone....happy chatting!!

Sunday, 23 September 2012

Starting Week #4

Here we are ~ Sunday night ~ and enjoyable carb day.  As in my last post, I told you how I even dreamt about my breakfast.  One would think I would dream of other things....nope it had to be a pancake!!

My last week was slightly tiring.  I hate to admit that I am tired - and if it wasn't from the incriminating photos my husband has taken of me falling asleep on the couch I would still deny it!  Actually, I won't say I was tired...but maybe my body was a little fatigued.  The whole week felt pretty good tho.

Tuesday I was a little fatigued in the bootcamp class - I had done cardio in the morning and then spin class prior to bootcamp. It could have been from the extra cardio or just the change in my diet. Blake and I have good communication and he is always asking how I feel, in regards to fatigue and the body.  I think other than my one on one training sessions, my favorite are the bootcamp training sessions.  I may be liking them more at the moment as I have not touched weights at all, with exception of my personal training sessions or bootcamp exercises - trainer's orders.

Personal training on Wednesday was holy shit....cardio/stairs for the full hour!  Holy Crap Batman!!!  One clean and press barbell with no weight (the bar still weighs something), then single stairs down, and doubles up.  Back to the barbell, two presses and then two sets of stairs all the way to fifteen sets.  I got it done - and it took the whole hour.

Friday night yoga felt great for my body and a well deserved stretch! I had come from cardio and I had missed it last week and my body recognized that.  After class, I felt re-energized.

I asked in one of my previous posts, *What Motivates People*?  Everything I mentioned in that post motivates me.  But, on Friday and Saturday I had a few people ask if I had lost weight?  How cool is that?  That they would notice - and only after 3 weeks?  That was a motivating moment for me...
But...it also showed me that the work that I had just started is showing already.  At the end of the month we will be doing more pictures, measurements and body fat testing to start charting the progress.

I can actually say that this week was a full completed week without any hiccups thrown in as in travel, or missed cardio sessions.

Onward and upward into Week #4

The Protein Pancake

I dreamt about the protein pancake last night.  Seriously, I am not a foodie.  I love to cook, just ask my family and friends.  I have requests at Christmas time and everyone wants their favorite goodie made.  My chocolate chip cookies are *the bomb*.  My son has introduced me to the TV show, CHOPPED; But...I have now discovered the Protein Pancake...and the best part - it's good for you and I can eat it.

A few years back I was told I had *sensitivities* to certain foods, mostly dairy, wheat & gluten.  This meant watching what I ate, and being more diligent than I had been in what I was eating. I already had an idea of what foods irritated me and I tried to stay away from those.  When the girl from the gym told me she wanted to make me this pancake...being polite, I agreed.  In the back of my head, I was thinking, *I'll be polite, but I won't be able to eat it*. You see, I hate pancakes - even as a kid, they were not a favorite of mine, and to eat them, the syrup was too sweet and I usually felt sick.

Alora made me this wonderful Protein Pancake - it was actually heaven....and it didn't bother me at all.  I honestly thought I had died and gone to heaven.  Knowing that it was good for me was even better. I attempted to make one at home the following weekend.  It didn't taste as good, didn't look the same, but for the first try I already had ideas how I would change it for the next time, not to mention the huge mess I made of the microwave!!  The worse part about making a mess is it is usually means you have to clean it up!  I neglected to tell you, as I love to cook, I seem to not be able to follow a recipe.  I ALWAYS have to change it and modify it.

I've talked about my training diet at the moment, which involves every second day *no carbs*; which now means the pancake is even more delicious, as I can only have it every second day....because is has oats in it....oats are the carb factor.

The first secret of this amazing pancake is the pan.  You need to have a small 8 - 10" round frying pan as the batter spreads.  Combine all the ingredients in a blender:  1/2 c. egg whites, 1 egg, 1/3 c. oats, 1 scoop protein, cinnamon and blend.  Pour into heated pan.  When little bubbles start to appear in the batter, flip pancake.  Cook over medium heat so as not to burn it.  You can experiment and add either a banana or other fruit to the batter, or even a scoop of almond or peanut butter.  The topping I use is about 1/2 c. of blueberries and a teaspoon of coconut oil, warmed in the microwave.  When pancake is ready, remove from pan and top with your topping of choice.  Add extra cinnamon if you desire, and you have heaven on a plate.

The best part...its' good for you!

Where does Motivation come from?

Another epiphany or random thought... Where does motivation come from?  Is it a motivational saying, someone saying something derogatory, a complimentary word or an encouraging hug, a blog we have read, http://tofatandback.com/, or a video we have seen, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqmASFA7eB0&feature=share or even a tv show/movie that might have inspired us. http://beta.abc.go.com/shows/extreme-makeover-weight-loss-edition.  On my drive home from training last night, this was my question to myself?  What inspires and motivates me? Money motivates me, nice weather motivates me, a day off can be motivating, working towards a vacation can motivate me...but what else motivates me?

Take away the fact I LOVE a challenge, don't count that I am competitive by nature, don't include that I HATE someone telling me I CAN'T do something, because I will prove to you I CAN, exclude my Type A personality; I seem to have found that there is a fine line between what & who motivates me and who my mentors are and what people inspire me.

The more I think about the Motivation side of things ~ I think this can be day by day, month by month, to how long one's goal may be.  Mini goals, short term, and long term - What does it take to keep anyone on track?  For me, I know that I am an over thinker and analyse everything!  My mind is sometimes my greatest enemy ~ NOT my cheerleader!  But...I can sometimes have it work for me as well (I think I mentioned in a previous post I am an optimist not a pessimist) ~ go figure!  lol....

Let's start with motivation before I get way off topic....

My children motivate me - making me want to be the best parent to them I can, regardless of their ages (21 & 24).  I want them to be proud of me just like I am proud of them.
My friends motivate me - I don't want to let them down, I want them to know that they can depend and count on me regardless of the task.
The scale motivates me....I HATE it!  But...to step on it, and be accountable - motivates me.
In relation to my *challenge to myself* - the sheer fear of looking out of place on a fitness stage motivates me to work hard, to train to the best of my ability and then some.
My friend and trainer Blake Venechuk http://www.totalbodydevelopment.ca/blake-venechuk.php who makes me sweat and pushes me pass where I think I can go - and believes that I can do it motivates and inspires me...but we haven't yet talked about inspiration.  Motivation and inspiration - are they the same?  Hmmm...makes one think...

The more I think about it, I am inspired by what I see & hear depending on the context and what my focus is at the time.  I am motivated by a wide variety of things.

Some years back when I was doing home sales, I used to say, *Motivation was necessity and necessity was Motivation*.  Depending on circumstances or mind set at the time. At that point and time, I was *Motivated* to go and work in home sales out of the *Necessity* to bring money in, so that my kids would have the extras that we did not have the money for.   I still believe this ~ but really what motivates the average person or the not so average person?  And why are some people more motivated than others?  Is it what is important to them at the time?

The question is - "Where do you get your Motivation & What Motivates You?"

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

Week #3

This blogging thing is still new to me ~ when I think of something that I want to write down, I am not near my computer....and when I have a moment to write...something else takes precedence - but here I am, ready to write....until too many topics are exploding in my head and staying on one subject is getting harder already.

Week #3 of my decided personal transformation posed a few minor challenges.  My husband and I went away for the weekend to visit family - a definite over due visit.  My challenges were being regimented on getting my needed cardio in as my schedule for the month of September has me doing dual cardio during the week for the month and single cardio on the weekends - I felt this shouldn't be an issue I could find time to do this.  When I have a *plan*, I get anal if I can't follow it thru - I usually can handle change well, but when I have a goal - full steam ahead!!  I would even put off going away to be able to stay in the routine of something that needs to be done.

I did improvise a little - did a double cardio on Saturday which made up for missing my last one on Friday night - BUT...after running on the pavement on Saturday, I chose not to do any cardio on Sunday - which was also a travel day.  I was concerned my shins would ache too much and it would take away from the rest of my training.  Did I feel guilty?  Absolutely!!

Eating was not too bad of a challenge - as my diet isn't extremely strict at the moment.  Within reason, I am one day carbs, one day no carbs - once again to see how my body is going to respond to this it was recommended that I try to stay away from the alcohol - which really isn't a problem for me anyway.  No alcohol because of the sugar...but who can resist 1/2 a glass of Sangria?  I allowed myself to enjoy it...knowing it probably was the last one until 9 months from now.

I must tell you about my protein pancake that I have discovered - mmm....that is for a later post.

My body isn't feeling any different with the change in diet.  I am writing everything down, as this keeps me on track and accountable for what I am eating.  I am not missing anything or having any cravings for sweet items.  My legs are tired from the cardio, spin and bootcamps but the rest of my body feels good.  I will give my meal information to my friend and trainer Blake at www.totalbodydevelopment.ca at the end of this week - only because I am impatient and can't wait till the end of the month, trying to remind myself that this is the experimental month.

Any noticeable changes after 2 1/2 weeks of hardcore training...hmmm...this is where one chooses to dissect themselves in the mirror - not always a pretty sight - remember the photos I wrote about?? Or if one can stand back and find the small subtle changes - this can be encouraging and motivating or depending on the mind set, deflating and depressing, but I am more of an optimist than a pessimist so I choose the high road.  The scale sometimes fluctuates, there are days I think its broken!! I also need to remind myself that my proposed start date with myself was September 1st.  Taking that into account I *think* I have noticed a few small changes.  My boobs I think are getting smaller (yeah), the inside of my thighs I think are taking more shape, and maybe just maybe my shorts are a little looser.

Reminding myself I have just started Week #3 - and tonight is my personal training session where I seriously need to bring my own *mop up crew* for the amount of sweat I leave behind.... Onward & Upward!


Tuesday, 11 September 2012

Anxiety over The Dreaded Photos

So it begins....I have completed my first week of my new challenge that I have set for myself; the beginning of my journey I will embark on for the next 9 months.  And what is this challenge I have referred to in previous posts?  I have committed to *train* for my first body building show ever!  I guess there is always a bucket list - and previously mentioned it has always been a secret passion I would have loved to have  explored when I was younger but there were other priorities in my life at the time.  I have always been involved in sports and fitness - so why not one more adventure?

My goal *start* date was decided as September 1, 2012.  My trainer/friend suggested the more time that is taken to prepare cannot hurt - but only help my body.  The first month's platform of training is to only consist of cardio - twice a day.  Yikes!!  It's not the fact of cardio twice a day - but the time commitment - I am still looking to cram 36 hours in my 24 hour day. Sure - I'm up for a challenge - I haven't quite figured out how to do that one yet.  With the help of my friend who coerced me into starting this new adventure with her, she came up with the brilliant idea that I could leave work, when she starts, which allows me to get my morning cardio in.  Keep in mind, I am the boss, so technically I should be able to do this guilt free...(note to self: Type A personality needs to work on *guilt-free*).  In the evenings I do another cardio of 1 - 2 hours consisting of either spin, bootcamp, personal training, or plain cardio on a cross trainer and even karate thrown in there for good measure.

My first week was rather enjoyable in a sick sort of way.  I am not going to lie... there were parts thru spin class I was thinking to myself, *What the hell was I thinking*?  but as quickly as that thought came to mind, it was gone...this is only the beginning.  The idea behind the heavy cardio in the first month is to see how my body will respond and also try and lose some fat mass.  A positive is that my body can build muscle fast and we have time for this.

Of course on a transformation like this, documentation is nice to have.  Something to look back on, to see how far you have come and be able to see the changes in ones body.  BUT...it still does not mean that there is no anxiety over the fact that you still need to have the start photos done.  One may like to pretend by sucking in ones stomach, holding the head up, shoulders back, it will help with making them taller, slimmer, and have abs of steel and disguise all the other flaws that we tend to ignore.  Well if that is the case, just try and have your picture taken and have a reality check.  I say this as I have often wondered what people see in their own mirrors and then leave their homes dressed a certain way - that is just completely wrong!!  Another topic for another blog.
I, myself, LOVE looking at before and after pictures of people's transformations.  It is a testament of the tenacity, perseverance and all the hard work and commitment that has gone into their training, dieting, etc.

I will have you know - I braved that damm camera, had those pictures taken and then subsequently refused to look at them for 5 days until I took pictures of my son who will also compete in the same body building show.  I then, sneaked a peek.  As I write this, they are still on my camera, reminding me that I need to upload them.  Am I ready to share them with the world?  Not as of yet, I haven't made my blog complete public knowledge yet.  I have been told that we will be doing pictures every 4 weeks so I am hoping my anxiety will simmer down and as the changes start shaping up I will be able to share these pictures, anxiety free.

Bring it on Week #2!!





Monday, 10 September 2012

An epiphany

In the last few days I have had this epiphany ~ why did I decide to start a blog just to write about *stuff*?  The stuff that floats around in my head throughout the day, humorous encounters that I have with customers, and just everyday *stuff*like previously mentioned - but why?  My sister-in-law does it, my cousins do it...

Thru my many random thoughts I realized, since my youngest had just moved out, it might help me with the depressing feeling I was having of losing a *baby from the nest*. A loss that was consuming me. I assume every mother goes thru this, but regardless, I don't like the feeling - and I believe I am entitled to feel this way - Another subject for another blog.  But...enough about the *pity train* ~ alot of people have it a lot worse than I, so I am jumping off this train at the moment and on to another...

My thoughts are that this blog may go in a totally different direction than planned.  I plan on documenting and talking about my challenge and the journey that I will be on for at least the next 9 months.  Of course there should also be random blogs about, *who knows* - whatever comes to mind...

Friday, 31 August 2012

Am I too old?

Anyone who knows me ~ knows that I am always up for a challenge...  They also know that I refer to myself as being *29* when asked my age.  I believe this so much so, as when thinking of my *true* birth certificate age I seem to forget what that age might be. I don't feel like the *true age* on my birth certificate and refuse to acknowledge it -and I sure as hell hope I don't look it.  I have chosen to take on a *challenge* that in some people's eyes might seem ridiculous, might seem impossible.  In others' eyes it might seem that everything is possible and there is a first for everything.  I have chosen to do this challenge to support my friend, who is going to do it as well.  It actually didn't start out like that as she just wanted someone to *suffer* along side with her and coerced me into agreeing to do it along side of her.

I have chosen not to tell my kids yet of my impending *challenge* that will start, *balls to the wall* on Sept 1, 2012, nor have I chosen to tell my friends or family as of yet.  There are a select few that know of my upcoming endeavour; my husband who at this time is being rather supportive, my mother in law, who may forget what we were originally talking about, when my husband mentioned it to her, a good friend of mine, whom was supportive right away and guessed it before I even knew I would do it, and my friend who coerced me into doing this; her husband.

Back to the original argument - Am I too old for such an endeavour?  I have researched on the internet and women way into their 70's have done this and still do.  Some haven't even started until they were in their 50's.  So what do I have to lose?  I am one of these people that once the *challenge* is in front of me, I go hard and have blinders on - no matter what the challenge is I forge ahead.  Yes I know in my mind that it is a constant battle of over thinking, analysing,  etc. That's just how I *roll*.

In hindsight, as much as I would like to say, * my friend coerced me*; it has always been something that I have wanted to do - but have just never had the time (time is still hard to find), or the support.  Is it a "bucket list" item?  Maybe - I have yet to answer that question.  As for the journey of the challenge - Stay tuned to find out what my coming *challenge* will be.  Am I too old?  HELL NO!!

Friday, 13 July 2012

Now what?

Two words ~ Now what?  What does this mean?  Well, here I am having made my profile and trying to figure out where to start to *blog*. Being some what computer illiterate, and trying to be proficient at navigating myself  around my blog, organizing the layout etc. I came to the conclusion, *Now what do I blog about*?

My mind tends to travel faster than my fingers or my mouth,  my thoughts can be interspersed with other ideas or questions and as fast as you can say *squirrel*, I have switched directions again, one thing triggering another.  Anyone who knows me, will often here me say, *To make a long story short...*, then I am off onto another story,which at the time I feel is relevant to the first with details and more detailing; the old saying, *One things leads into another* comes to mind.  Where the hell did this come from?  For me, I can go in depth with a conversation, an explanation of circumstance or give detailed accounts for direction, with the *Why's* and *What fors*, so to make a long story, short...here it is....everyone is entitled to their opinion, it is a Free Country.

So *Why* do you ask? Or maybe you haven't but I'm going to share anyway! It stems from the time I was small, coming home from school and my mother would want me to recount the days activities. *What did you do at school today*?  My reply, *Stuff*, this as far as I was concerned the end of the conversation for me ~ Not so with my mother.  *What sort of stuff*? And the volley of words would continue with a one word answer, *Math*.  Of course that was not a reasonable explanation, *What sort of Math*? my mother would ask.  *Addition & subtraction*. Again not good enough, *What did you do after math*?  And so it would continue until she had wrung every little detail of my 5.5 hours spent at school from my tired, overloaded brain. This wonderful trait transcended into me torturing my own children with this same process.  One word answers were not enough information.

With my children having had to put up with me inheriting this trait unbeknownst to them I have passed it on to them.  They may not know it yet, but I see it. (hee hee)  Not only grilling them on their days activities but what they thought of their day, and what is now going on in their everyday lives. I hope that one day they will recognize this as a good thing. (I honestly have a vested interest in them)  I have been told this is good for the brain and in remembering details. ( Maybe that is why I am good with directions and name recalls.)  Many times I have heard my kids say to someone, *I have a question*, then proceed to ask it.  For me, at least I know that they are not afraid to ask.  If you don't understand or you want an answer - *ASK* for it.  Yes it is like pulling teeth, but communication is the key, and if we can grasp what might be in those minds we may have a better understanding of the person, who and what they are and the direction they may be heading, or we may just wake a sleeping giant.  We just may learn a thing or two.  You be the judge!