Epiphany #452

I'm working into week 5 of this journey, who would have thought when I started this I was talking about *week 2* of the process and now I find myself starting the countdown with 5 weeks to go.  Who would have thought? It already seems like it has gone by so fast when I think about it.  I've read and tried to digest information that I have found on the internet, watched You Tube videos, and I am sure driven my trainer, Blake crazy with all sorts of questions, and texts.  I've tried to absorb what I can like a sponge.  Nothing really comes into perspective until I have my 'Blake Day' www.totalbodydelopment.ca
which by now you probably know as my Wednesday personal training day. I have so much respect for this man not only as my trainer but as my friend. He is a ' shoot from the hip' guy that tells it like it is, he speaks his mind but has a way of 'calling me out' on different things in conversation. (Not many people do this - I admire this in people that do)  Some of those 'aha moments', that make you think about the conversation after the fact and make you really take a look at yourself, where you are and how far you have come.

As my trainer, I have a trust in him that he will do and have me do what he believes is best for me during this process to get me to where I need to be. With having never done this before I find the hard part is trying not to put the *horse before the cart*.  Inquiring minds always want to know!  I believe I have gained a great friendship throughout this journey. Again contrary to what I have read in regards to some horror stories about personal trainers, and what they would have their clients do at the expense to their health.  Blake is all about communication, discussing how I will feel after this particular show is over and where I see my body after.  He has been very direct in stating not expect to stay at show weight.  A few months ago he told me I needed to think about where I would like my body to be at and what a reasonable and healthy weight would be for me. I admire this in him as a trainer, communication is the key.  He is all about the health and everyday living and mobility as well.

This now evolves into another conversation we had in regards to my training. This whole process has been enjoyable! Yes!! You heard me- I've loved doing it. I haven't had an issue with the the dieting as of yet.  I have eaten more than I used to eat, so I actually feel that I have been eating healthy and clean, and frequently.  I have noticed peoples comments in relation to food. They question whether I am eating? They are curious if I am starving? I know I am hearing more comments about being *thin*; this leads me to think, *Was I really FAT before*??  I admit, today being one of them, I have felt hungrier - could it be that my body is burning more energy?  Yes I have been doing double cardio, but even that hasn't gotten monotonous.  Our discussion led to the point that it might be because I have had variety - spin, bootcamp, personal training, karate, and yes the cardio, and I have used a variety of machines too. So it hasn't been a *boring* regime.  Again, Type A personality, a creature of habit, routine??  Hmm...

I will admit after all this being said, I do go between wondering, "what is next", and "anticipating" what I will look like in 5 weeks time.  All at the same time trying to remember Blakes' advice - enjoy the process - its going to go by so quick.

I'm trying!!  And I AM!