Today is a NEW day!
Funny how one minute things seem good - our mood is a happy one and some small thing can either happen or set us off - and things change in a second. My issues are trivial compared to the people in the Boston marathon bombing. We really need to put things into perspective, however at the time we can make such small things into a mountain.
I had a meltdown yesterday or 'very' close to one. I was able to hold myself together but all I wanted to do was cry. All in frustration - I haven't felt like that in a really long time. It may seem like nothing, but for me it was a huge deal at the time.
I've talked about how I love weights. They beat me yesterday - and the frustrating part was they should not have - they were only 25lb dumbbells. I felt they were heavy (laugh at that oxymoron), I had no form, and everyone was pounding thru the reps except for me. Frustration at its finest! I felt I couldn't do anything right! I was cranky to my trainer which is completely unacceptable in my opinion which left me with more of a shitty feeling. I had a good spin class before bootcamp, there was a cardio component at the beginning of bootcamp then weights - it was downhill from there.
I hate to leave a training session feeling like this. I felt defeated which is not a good feeling. I did send an apology to my trainer and friend for being an ass and his words of wisdom were 'Don't let such superficial things get to you. It's not worth the energy'. Again, hit with a brick and such smart words.
Today is my personal training day - new day, new set of challenges.
Here's to dusting myself off and seeking redemption in the gym!
Onward and upward!
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